Tired days

Okay I am so sorry for the gap of time since I last posted. Well, my last post was pretty much coming from a flood of emotions as I started to dive into what should be the final victory lap in my battle of cancer. Well, I can report, chemo is and was exactly what I was expecting...not fun. I can finally write about this experience because until today I was struggling with the nausea, today, I'm just exhausted. 
So Monday, I began my day with a hearing test which was fantastic. The cisplatin (yuck!) has the tendency to cause hearing problems for up to 2 years after treatment! I guess many hearing tests will be in my future. Anyways, my hearing is great (despite what my parent would say). So after that we checked into M50...all of us...mom, dad, nonie, papa, and me. the chemo started first with doxorubicin which was only 15 minutes. Then an hour of fluids before that big bad bag of cisplatin came in. That was a 4 hour drip, and I repeated the same schedule on Tuesday. Wednesday morning I actually was discharged from the hospital, it was nice to spend my crummy time at home this week versus in the hospital. Although none of my treatments are "easy", this past treatment, which is usually the worst, went much smoother than we expected?! Normally I can barely move, lay in bed all day and can't keep anything down. I haven't gotten sick once this whole week! Given, I obviously wasn't feeling good, but MUCH better than I usually am! I credit this to the fact that my tumor is gone-zo so the chemo has nothing to harbor in or severely attack, again, just a theory. I have been walking around, hanging out with some friends and relaxing this whole week! I am taking this streak of luck and enjoying every second of it! 
 Today, I could barely stand at mass with the fam. I am so so so fatigued and exhausted! I thought I was over the crumminess but I've been laying in bed all day. I guess that's what I should have expected. I still have the needle accessed in my port to get connected to fluids over night, that definitely has helped. I head back to the clinic on Tuesday for a check up and to get the needle out. 
 On another note, I have to say happy father's day to all the amazing dads out there. I'm so fortunate to have such an amazing role model and friend in my life, my daddyo, Todd. Papa, my grandpa is also here to celebrate fathers day with us, and he is also someone I look up to and strive to live like. Both of these amazing men and my dad's father, grandpa, have shown me how to live freely, work your hardest, and love unconditionally. To all of you missing your fathers on this day, you are all in my prayers and know they are sending you love always, no matter how far, even from that place up in the sky. I hope you all had an amazing week and another great one coming up. Sending my love two-fold to all of you. And Dad, I wouldn't be the person I am today without you. I love you to the moon and back, thank you for all that you do for me Kenz, and joe. Especially in this time, I lean on you and you are alway there.
 Keep your heads up and enjoy your evenings with the ones you love. I know I am. Love, Em