Wish the nausea would go away...

This morning started off kind of rough for me, coming off a rough night. I was so excited to leave the hospital last night, but as soon as I got home, I felt extremely sick again. My pills didn't make it down last night but we soon realized its because I haven't eaten anything. I've tried snacking on pretzels, but honestly, I've lost my apetite for everything. NO food sounds appealing, which I guess is a result from one the chemo drugs. For those of you know know me, this is extremely odd because I LOVE food! So weird to think I've gone a week without eating anything....but the doctors say thats normal and they are just concerned with fluids.


This morning, it was time (already) to go back to the doctors office to do some blood tests. They have to monitor my levels of nutrients and cell count because in the next few days, all my numbers are going to start dropping...which is exactly what we want! Little by little, fighting the c in my leg, get's more frustrating. This morning I had some moments where I just said to my parents, "I don't want to do this" and this is just the beginning.


I'm hoping my apetite will comeback soon because I am hungry, but the thought of any food makes everything come up, (gross I know). I'm working on some gatorade because it has calories, some sugars and electrolytes.


When I went to the doctors this morning, they were all prepared and can visibly tell how sick I felt so I got to rest in one of the back rooms and hook up to some fluids and anti-nausea medications. That little break definitely helped. While at the doctor, I also had the privilege of meeting a beautiful young woman who is on the back end of treatment. She had the same cancer as me, so I got to ask her some questions and what to expect through this long process. That was a really great opportunity.  Everyone at the doctors office is so sweet and really care about all their patients. I received a handmade bracelet from one nurse today that spells out "cancer suck" and she said they have them and wear them. She told me "I earned it."


Today I'm just laying low, nothing sounds better than just laying in this bed all day. I took a nap when I got home which was nice too. To avoid having a repeat occurrence of nausea, which is a result of lack of fluids, there is a home care nurse coming tonight to teach my family and me how to hook up to some more fluids overnight which should help me feel a lot better.


And lastly, to all of my amazing friends, keep being you. Please keep smiling, I miss and love you all very much, thinking of you everyday.